thnx yc for ur company juz now...i appreciated it...anw remember the jpaanese man who don't wanna move in a airport of mexico?he heard of the song "the man who can't be moved"
cos got this stanza in the lyrics saying that he may bcome famous if he don't move at the place where he first met that gal he's singin to....sad...

hey guys...im goin on mondae morning...sry arhs...cannot go online at 7.....cos im going at that time n i nid to wake up at bout 5....im veh reluctant to go there cos even if i go there theres no guaranteed fun...stay at singapore at least got frends can tok to.....got frends to meet up with...can listen to some music on the net...can go surf the net without using a laggy networks...so sians....i'l miss u guys...on the first hour after i board the plane...haha.....maybe lar...maybe not...depends.....

sians...the class gathering..to me..its not sucessful...i mean....some people are not like....entertained....like me...i felt so....im juz like a failure.....anw...people pls try to tok to me b4 mondae...cos...maybe i'll nvr on my comp begining from 20th..when im back...or lets say..19th...so pls read my posts...b4 im gone...4eva....maybe this class gathering is gonna be the last time i see u guys/gals....of course..i'll go out with chun n maybe yc...but...the others....i hereby sincerely sae sry.........11:11....im thinkin of sum1.....
sians....emo-ed juz now...i squat in a corner of my room...i've thought hard....its not sucessful....
1/5 of the money spent at NTUC....gone......yc shld noe....anw...now im thinkin....yc noe me quite well....its bout $8....n the meaning of me buying it...its bout....touching sum1......yesterdae...stayed up till 4AM to clean my room...including the shelf.....my closet...which is in total mess yesterdae b4 i cleaned it up...i discarded over half of all my clothes to make my closet look nice n tidy
now....
its all down the drain....
my efforts.....everything......
i spent at least 1 hr...
tryin to clean up the dust...under my bed...on my table...under my table.....
i spent over 30min....cleaning thick blocks of dust off the space in between the fan.......i've never worked so hard b4.....its all down e drain...nothins perfect...oni a few people in this world is....to me.......
anw...i've stayed up till 4...partly i was thinkin of the ingredients needed to make sumpthing...yc shld noe.....anw todae.....i was heating up e curry my mum had cooked early in the morning....n i was cutting up e french loaf for e curry using a sharp knife...i've oni used 2 times b4.......in the end...not many people ate the curry...some people even think that the french loaf was juz normal bread n its for nothing.....i felt lke crying when i was eating the remainings at home......i was dipping the remaining french loafs n chewing on it...i felt....sad....when i was heating up...i stopped halfwae..cos sum1 called n said that she's gonna reach in 5 mins....i took my handphone...i chiong downstairs.....i saw yk n xinlin at the entrance.....after 5mins....denise came....chionged for nothing...could have slowly walked...i've sprained my ankle cos of that.....
n whats the result?being sad....down here...another thing that i felt at this gathering...
jealousy...
i was thinkin of singin at the bench..but...yj was the star...gratz...
tennis..reminded me of a bad memory...thats why i've quit tennis at bout Primary3....i fell when i tried to serve a throw n hit.....n i fell back....i thought i was a perfect player that time...but after that....i've quit tennis...todae...i've played cos i juz wanna get warmed up...in the end..i've found out that me, a perfect bar of steel has turned rusty.....n the uses are gone.....my skills...the steel bar can't be used anymore...time to be be disposed of.....tears are comin out of my eyes now...i'll nid to clam down..but i can't....
after that....we've played b-ball.........nothing special.....when i scored...sum1 was juz not there...n when im injured n walkin awae....she's back......thats fate...
if i've been born abit taller....i'll be in the limelight...cos..when i wanna stop chun from shooting...i can touch the ball...but...my the ball was too high for me to even cover that shot...juz abit more...i'll be perfect..sadly...i noe im not....i thought i noe how to use scientific explanations to barbeque the food....but i was wrong.......yc's cousin maid was much better than me...i'm nothin todae....total oblivion.....i juz acted happy when im with the others...it was totally diff from e afternoon when me n yc went to BPP....i was cracking lame jokes..to make him laugh...n i laughed when he laughed...n i complaint to him when he didn't..like "wth?! my joke not funny mehs?" then he would give me aforced smile....at least...he appreciated....im touched by this frendship of ours...maybe the jokes i cracked through MSN n u said "lols" or "haha" is juz fake comments....maybe bhind the screen ur thinkin"aw pls stop this convo with ken."or u're frownin n thinkin im disturbing...u noe...i understand.....i can guess....n this is to denise.....ima pyschic too
tok so much..one dae will disappear...one dae it'll be forgotten.....no use changing things around here to improve it anymore.....its no use...nobody's appreaciating it..NOBODY....
thinkin back bout the efforst i've put in...ima wasted asshole who others thinks ima bastard...nothing else....songs make me think alot..i think alot...i self-reflect....but..whats the use?not like anyone would appreciate me explaining using scientific facts....no one do....its no use...people juz judge using PSLE scores or wateva...but think again...does that count? wat if the lousiest scorer in PSLE gets a personal invitation to meet the presidents of all countries to give em advice....i noe its quite impossible...but y not?maybe b4 PSLE he's totally addicted to comp? he can't control n went to play comp on the dae b4 PSLE?u won't know....the smartest people may emerge as some retardeds.....or even a comp addict since kindergarden?u noe y?cos thats me...maybe i won't excel after PSLE which is most probably whats gonna happen...n i will totally not bcome the smartest guy....100% sure....maybe an astronomer...maybe an chef...maybe a leader of a rock band.....u won't noe...its fate that decides ain't it? so im juz foloing...nothing else...i'm juz saying wateva i wanna say...anw..yc..tmr...i think we shld go out barhs...im sick at home...im totally sick...even if im goin to ur hse to play....im happy...even if i'll go to ur hse n scream with ur lil bro..i'll feel better....maybe if i go there to quarel n fight...i'll feel stronger...n maybe remorse....maybe if i go there to learn more bout electronics from ur father..i'll feel smarter by another step......maybe if i learn more bout our religion through ur grandma....maybe i'll feel more knowing in religions.....maybe if i learn cooking from ur mom...i'll get more knowledge in ingredients n cooking...anw..at home..al i can do is sit n stare at comp screen...nothing else....sry for the long post people/readers..but i think im juz crying what my heart wanna scream out loud long ago...long ago as in a few hrs back in time...im sry...i hereby sincerely apologize to all of u readers...

this song...its very nice if its with this skin....so i've added it to my playlist...
I can't smile without you lyrics:
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you
You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away
And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile
Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me
And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

todae...im campin...4 awhile....7 more hrs n i'll have to wake up......
anw....sumptimes...i emo...unknowingly...sumtimes...its on purpose...no matter what...i fell....bad when i emo...sumtimes..i suddenly bcame angry when my sis like...barge into my room n start screamin n i'll whack her...lightly...i won't...whack gals till...nvm...i juz nid to chill out maybe tmr(or todae) after noon i'l have fun..maybe not....im not the one who decides....anw
i wanna sleep le...i wanna wake up on time though.....by 7:45...its a secret...maybe u tinkin ima witch in disguise n im brewing some shit in my damned ceramic pots....haix...so random...ima ang gu gui!!!wateva...byes.....

back to my damn emo state..dunno why yc todae so....blasted some song in vain to try to chill out but to no avail...nobody wanna tok to me....screamed at my cousin to shutup n she still ask why????????????with lots of question marks n she'll say "BORIN!!!!!!!!!"with lotsa exclamation marks....so i blocked her...quick n easy...anw....yc muz be frustrated t'dae cos he sae he nid to guan jiao his bros n thus his xing qing bu hao...summore he can't plae comp cos got people wanna help him change his windows vers. into XP i mean..wth lar...on the other hand im sians of playing comp...maybe i'll quit playing comp nxt yr 4eva.....n maybe im gonna sell my HP to 2nd hand shop...shut myself in my room until its school time n do homework in my room...its all that simple...

im gonna quit campin...i started yesterdae..who cares even when im online at midnight ++ oso nothing to do...muz well wake up early n then at least got somebody to tok to....yesterdae bout 6-7 i played badminton with yc...wth i lost 2 shuttlecock n its stuck in the tree with some other people's shuttle cock....decorating the tree eh? n the last one is veh lucky...got 1 time i hit super high n almost get into the balcony of a 2nd-level apartment...anw we changed location to that place where the balcony is bulging out...then the other time is yc serve from the pavement then alost drop in...wow...so lucky...that shuttlecock...anw when we playig arh...yc veh...funny....
at first he said "ho buoi?u like cannot ee liddat" when i lost 1 point then when he lost one point i said exactly the same thing then later whoever lose muz sae that.....after awhile we bored of that phrase then he cr8 new one...we muz bow n then sae "I sincerely apologize/apologise" wth got so many people walking past but thats the rule...so we were like "i sincerely apologize" for dunno how many times n that court like veh noisy n the noise was produced juz by us saying "i sincerely apologise"....later we go downstairs book the bbq pit..then got this newbie guard dunno where they put the receipt...then yc's father already wrote a cheque n the date is 9/12/08 n the guard tell us to book todae..i was like "wth?!" haix...so sian...todae i going market with yc....n he haven't even wake up YET........sians.....currently toking to somebody......hahas.....

my new nickname.....can-tea.....sian....so random...cos my sis one is brenda tee= blended tea
so i copy her idea.....
so sian....went IMM todae....my father bought a wardrobe and a shelf for my sis.....350bucks.....muz well buy me a psp -.-....sian lar....wanna go jurong entertainment centre de......but go eat lunch...wlao...so sian.....can go jurong east de library after going J.E.C but bcos of my damned lunch...haix.....went the library with my sis b4.....got this section of comic books ....got Peanuts got Calvin n hobbes etc. but didn't go.....so sian.....waliao.....by todae 6:30PM muz go book the pit ler...then denise told me yongkiat gonna hold another gathering on the dae itself i was like "WTF?!is he trying to challenge us?!?!"i mean....yanchen invited him to go to ours, he said okay....but at night i found out that he's gonna hold another class gathering...so screwed......now oni got 10 people including me n yc...sians....SIANS.....i've got my smiles at the gathering but not todae...i mean...so "guo Fen" of yongkiat...i mean.....he noes that we're gonna have a gathering this fridae but he seemed like he wanna screw up that fridae.....sianzz...................
stuffing myself with seaweed...too angry liaos lar.....first time i shivered when i play comp.....
cos todae whole dae i've walked in the rain + bathed in cold water...juz to chill abit...i mean...
wats the use of holding another gathering? we are now so despo for some damned response from people to sae that they wanna go to OUR class gathering...i mean..oni 1/3 of the people of the class going ....its not even a gathering ain't it?screw me...somebody juz whack me can u?sian write so much nobody read..anybody who've read until this sentence pls tag n say "ken's a emo asshole who's also a nerd" if u sae it....i'll be so grateful....i mean...this tells me that at least my efforsts are not wasted...i wanna play "left 4 dead" but so shitty
so ex
i mean.....i rather buy warhammer online...60bucks sia......fallout 3 my aunty bought for me but i didn't receive it...cos she's in m'sia....n i dont noe whether pirated not....sian..i wanna get the real one........i dunno what to do now...a guy who's trying to split the class into half..sianz....anw the e-mail i've sent is oso sent to ms loh so.......she may be coming...i hope she can come cos she missed the last one...so....haix....nvm.....
later post barhs...deal wih sumpthing first....
RAWRS~~~~i wanna eat my phone haha
*edit!!*
changed blogskin over the night....so sian...1:17 le....didn't take long....
anw...i've thought over it.....nvm u guys saw nothing okaes?

nobody wanna hear me sing....i sang damn loud then blast music then kena whacked by my older sis dammit.....haha partly my fault cos i blasted when they sleeping :X
hahas they came out with her pillow n she whacked me with it....wah so PAIN arh...
lols.....so sad.....nobody likes me to sing....i mean...hahas...nobody head me sing b4 :D
sian lar....still nobody wanna go cg...maybe i won't be happy after all....sian....Mr CCC says if yj not going then he dun go cos yj can fetch him..sian lar so lazy...haix.... anw i've posted quite alot t'dae so if u think this is the one n oni post for todae then sry ur wrong..scroll down n read... -.-
sian....still nvr receive the money from my mom...wtf lar..she sae she'll pass me the money then i pass her mine ...(exchange currency) so it was like "wtf holy SH!T!!!! i 4gotten!!!how?!?! sian!!"then now muz rely on yc on the financial part until tmr evening....tsk tsk how can i 4get sumpthing so importent....almost spell impotent....sian lar nobody visit my blog de...one dae i'll smash my comp n nvr go online again.....i'll stay awae from the phone too...n lock myself in my room..so *****ed up lar my life...nope the censored word is screwed so if u think the other words that means u think i veh vulgar....(which i am when im angry)but im not angry now...but sad n lonely...dunno what to do......i mean..to make my own life more interesting......try to like some1 else...i dunno....maybe....haix............................................................dotzzz
T_T all nvr read my post de...i repeat pls read the post that is posted on 6dec i mean the words not the pics -.- n u'll noe.....but u lazy peoples haix..nvm if u dunwanna read...i'll juz delete the post since nobody's reading my damned blog T_T

hey guys sry for not being online during the whole afternoon....cept for awhile...bout 15mins?
from 12PM to 3PM++ i swam n discussed with yanchen......haha had a gr8 dae swimming with that nubbie-whos-scared-that-he'll-drown haha jkjk
he actually....erm...inspired me....he had a bad experience/nightmare in the pool long time ago n he actualli overcome the fear n went swimming with me so i was like wow *.* when he actually said"yes" straight awae when i asked him to swim....last time he'd alwaes give excuses so that he won't b going swimming with me....lonely sia that time haha jkjk i got water as my frend -.-
anw.....we've decided that we shld organize/organise another class gathering at our condominium......wah....i've thought alot downstairs with him....hahas but i won't leak the info of the programmes....BWAHAHAHA hold on...one thing...bring ur swimsuit n extra clothings if u wanna swim......n u won't be bathing in our apartment cos there's a bathroom/washroom at the club there.....lols n u can camp in the sauna if u want to....u choose...lols.....
anw...bout 3-4PM i slacked n slacked n slacked then later i kena misunderstood at bout 4PM n i emo-ed in my room....till 5PM i locked myself inside with the phone...then talked to yanchen as if nothing has happened....then 5PM i accompany my sisterS to orchard...wlao....now i noe how it feels when u go orchard with gals lar yanchen...if with sumbody i like still nvm :Phahaha
anw nobody ever read finish my post(s)......
i went to orchard till 10++ sian took sum pics...i'll post em later....anw i 've got alot of things from my sis who went to ShangHai for a HSK study trip.....its more of a field trip when i saw the pics...
i'll post the things i've received later too.....haha later i'll post pics....BWAHAHA
okok i now dun luo suo le u guys oso dun wanna read my post(s) one so im wasting my time :)
bye~~~~~~~

now nothing to do...so im gonna write bout what i'll try to do n how i feel when i have some feelings for sumone...
in school....i'll wanna tok to that person but i've no guts to do it n im alwaes the quiet type unless we are close frends.....at home i'll try to get online n commuinicate with her as long as possible...i'll feel like checking if she's online while gaming if she's not online b4 i play my comp games....
i'll try my very best to agree with her...i'll try to make her laugh/happy when she's feeling down...i'll feel sumpthing when i chat with her....u can sae...im happy.....
or im longing to....
bwahahas......
change topic barhs....
haix.nobody heard me sing seriously b4...i hope i can record it down n send it to my frends...
those songs with lyrics i can remember or those with the lyrics in front of me....i can remember the rythm but not lyrics so if got lyrics i can sing........like..."Still".....n"Handlebars" n the preacher willy sing one...errrr is bout the sun one lar the "wu lun shi zhu zai, mei li di gao shan" one...haix...in chinese that is....nobody heard me sing b4...when i tried in front of joel he laughed at me...but tats not when im serious.....haix....nvm.......later post again....
i go watch more F.M.A 2

Dunnoe y yanchen bcame so emo.....

lols the people who stayed till 9PM++ get to take a group photo......haha chun so SHUAI...lols n yongzhi what r u wondering bout?haha...have a nice time...bye anw...i've thought n thought bout it....i don't deserve to be happy...eeemmmooo~~~

lols
im like a drunken man...loving,caring,gaming,playing,lying,camping n most importantly emo-ing.....not all at the same time.
im loving, caring, lying, in gaming, n im gaming when im camping, im emo-ing when im camping....
its like a chain.....nothings good of me in ur eyes my dear readers....
blasting songs.....cos my hse is gonna be veh quiet from todae onwards.......yc won't be visiting cos he juz got his new comp n his own internet connection at home....aw i can't do anything to stop him....it makes him happy....
when my frends are happy, i'll try my best to be happy for them.....but there are juz alot of obvious disadvantage/lost when they're happy.....
i emo-ed juz now.....wash my face with cold water n later turn on the fan to the max b4 i lye on the bed to sleep X]

lols.....
early in the morning im massacring people n playing mahjong....how worst can i be?
WTF i dunno the exact location of the class party.....i noe its at jalanselanting but THERE ARE SO MANY CONDOS THERE!!
i was like "wtf?!" when i saw the sattelite pic. so sick lar......
i mean
the location of that house/condo make me feel sick...wlao....
so gayy de...

lols watched full metal alchemist 2 curse of the crimson elixir.
quite nice...but still i think season 1 much better....
oni watched 3 eps so far...so slow....now i wanna go gaming le...byes

haha sry again for posting at such a late time....boh bian...sis use till so late...
juz now i thought of where n when i first saw some of my old frends...
1.Yanchen
.bhind the teachers staff room when we are lining up to get up the bus when we were P1 1st dae
2.ChunCheong
.canteen when i having lunch.....bout late P2
alot more which i can't remember...
sad...now i veh sian so going to watch some animes...

haha...unlocked a Guan Yu Weapon...rox....
but....i keep losing to Lu Bu
that sux :(
hahas....now im quite addicted to it....
when i came out to post i keep thinkin "go on and continue ur missions n blog later"
but i overcome this evil(not rilly evil lar)
lets see.....
see what? aiya i veh tired liao...go to sleep liao....
remember to tag...
anw i bcame a feast for mosquitos when i'm playing that super shiok game...

lols....
had some fun playing shin sangokumusou 4 aka. dynasty warrior 4 special edition:chinese
rox......
Guan Yu pwned all the minors with his spear....
i get to play this bcos my father told me to show him the problem i encountered after installing the game n i showed him exactly what i did that dae but it worked this time...
wootz....
played ramenMS n red alert 3 too...all these games are damn...fun...
12:23 le...
i go back plae games barhs.....anw most probably i'll be lonely tmr cos yc most probably is gonna go his father's office...
sianz...bye post after i breakthrough another few missions in dynasty warriors :P haha sry people...
kk here i go again!!

geez....veh cold now...midnight camping n watching animes....
juz now i played Command & Conquer: red alert 3"
damn nice.....
but i now watching some animes....n i thought of my blog...so i came n post....
sadly yanchen can't play...haix

so....anybody saw the smile in the sky yesterdae?cos i smiled when i saw it...its...got a nice feeling...
maybe the phenomenon(oh shit i dunno how spell) will be shown in the news....cos...yesterdae when i see it....the malaysia's most viewed channel had shown the smile in the night sky...
the strange thing is...the phase of the moon is unknown n nvr seen b4...its the first time i saw a cresent below 2 stars...as in...its not like the cresents are at the side but its at the bottom...
but....its veh..funny?
one star is....brighter n another is dimmer.....so its like somebody winkin at me when i saw that smile...hahas...maybe people at s'pore can't see it....strange...short post...
anw..juz now i chewed a chewing gum for 5hrs...n the texture bcame like....melted marshmallow i spat it out cos its bitter n later my mouth dried up fast....n my mouth was like...coated with...erm...wax?
i hope its poisonous tough.....
anw...how are you guys/gals?
5daes in m'sia........
the oni fun thing is that i can drive a bulldozer(yeah!)
its cool....
my grandfather taught me how.....
n i bcame a carpenter for 3 daes....fun...pure fun....no smiles but sweat....
feels great back at home...