how funny, huh?
five minutes ago, it's all smiles and now frowns.
1430 it was sunny and it became a stormy day in just 10 freakin minutes.
people just don't put faith in me (note to little children who just happen to stumble across this dull blog and start reading, faith ain't like pennies or notes you put in macdonald donation boxes just because you feel that those people are pitiful, it's something more. geddit?)
anyways, this march holiday for me just SUCK TO THE CORE of the apple or plum or whatever fruit you know that have a core.
first, it's just too boring to call it a holiday please, god, let me do something exciting, something thats so retarded that it's funny, just, SOMETHING.
even a whole game of dota pwning little ai that i've chose that made me have a big advantage doesn't seem fun anymore, not even dota.
not going out to talk a little walk in the mall, just, unless, with someone's accompany.
hell, is what im going through.
this morning, had taekwondo, i don't know whats up with my frail body, i just started to turn cold and sweating just so much sweat after sprinting and stopping and sprinting again.
i looked at my hands, it turned white and people started to say i look pale, NO, i don't look pale, i look handsome.
gosh, just joking.
anyways, i thought "wow, im turning angmoh! incredible stuff huh?"
and i had a headache after sitting down for a while "man, an angmoh with financial problems!"
haha, just joking, but, i did feel real real giddy and stuff.
i felt what it was like when you're near death, unable to breathe, eat shit, and shit.
it really was cold, just, don't know why, blood rushing for the expo sales going on in my legs?
or in between my legs?
god.
secondly, why this holiday SUCK TO THE CORE of whatever fruit you thought of just now, was cause of chinese orchestra practice.
"why so serious?" a fan group thing in facebook. and i agree, WHY SO SERIOUS?!
darn, just for a gold medal that would be forgotten 2years down the road?
for a performance that people would sleep at?
i mean, yea, i could play, but is there this need to make me SUFFER all these crap to make me perform this little bit?
i konw the sec4s this year are gone by next year, but, what has it got to do with a performance that they would be performing at that have to have me pretend that i am going solo?
i was the one who chose the CCA on my own free will.
on the CCA transfer form, i could've put 'Chinese Orchestra' instead of 'Boy'sBrigade' in the blank under the 'Transfer from:'
i joined chinese orchestra cause i think it would be a great experience, that i could learn SO much more, without going through any crap, and what?!
i could have have this slight advantage if i joined boy's brigade, with a gold medal i earned from primary school, but, what i put FAITH in chinese orchestra, and it didn't give any results.
it's like, inserting a whole bucketful of 50cents coins into a machine that makes music and just bobs you up and down for 1min and realizing it's spoilt.
WHAT, THE, HELL?
i know, there's one hell, but, seriously, i've seen my sis emo all day just cause she didn't get a gold with honours for their school's chinese orchestra SYF, that is how much effort and faith she put into chinese orchestra with the lousy result.
i mean, someone please tell me, is this chinese orchestra thing good, or bad?
i had fun, but just, eventually, it all turn into frown.
funny huh?
curse me and my thoughts, why ain't i born mentally retarded so i need not think of all this crap and instead, how to get my toy back from the monster under the table, cause my toy rolled to the monster, it disappeared.
i mean no offense to those who are retarded, but, it's just that, they're much more happier just cause, you see, how simply they think.
i think it's a blessing, thinking simple instead of getting worked up over school stuffs and crap to get a frown on me or my friends face, to get me and my friends saying some curses behind the whom we think is evil behind their back, to infect that frown upon those whom i touch.
hm, i don't feel like saying anything bout this anymore, i hope someone would give me an answer.
thirdly why this holiday SUCKED TO THE CORE of the nameless or mythical fruit you thought of, is cause i've lost friend, a good friend, not that he died, but, just that, i thought he's a bastard and i am insisting he is one.
he lied, he left me to wait, he wasted my sms and call times =.=, and he really didn't care(thats what i think from my perspective) bout me cause i smsed him this:"Fuck you, you can do me this favor, this great big favor. Treat it as i didn't met you before" and he didn't reply, which is why, i think he too think ima bastard. anyways, i smsed that AFTER all those things he did and after our argument, which really flared me up, or say, sparked a spark in a whole truck load of gunpowder.
i exploded like "BOOOOOM!"
following with other smaller explosions.
frowns and ignorance were the debris that was thrown all over my heart during the explosions.
nice? i say no, i repeat, no, shit this radio's spoilt.
hahs, being a random asshole here.
hmm, fourth, but this is the minorest of the minorest minor or the minors, yanchen not being able to play dota or bball with me=.= he did this afternoon though, but it kinda rained awhile after we started?? before we started it drizzled, but we did after all (:
well, something that made me happy was that there was lotsa smiles on the face of people i love (:
thats good, but, one of them smiles was turned into e eville frowns about40 minutes ago which is like when i started this post.
blehhs, shan't blabber anymore, hope everyone would have a nice day at school starting tomorrow D: buhbyes(: